Inspiring Discussions

There was an awesome conversation last night in my house. Maybe Monday night discussions will be our new Monday house theme. The discussion lasted for a very long time, and even though I had to stay up until 2 in the morning to finish my paper for the next day, it was well worth it. We talked about beliefs changing your life. There are a lot of things people say they believe, but their life is no different. Even though most beliefs require some sort of response if the person truly believes it. It was a thorough dialogue on our own lives and how we claim to believe certain things but do not act on them. How can we stand by and watch people starve in other countries while we live comfortably in our house with abundant food while watching our 45” flat screen TV, yet we still claim to have love for humanity. Certain things require a response.

As I blog more and more, I feel I am getting more sentimental. I feel there is a need for sentiment more than there is for casual lifestyles. Often in my life I get a little out of hand with living too casually: Joking too much, not knowing how to respond to someone’s pain, or even avoiding situations that I know will make me guilty. I do not think it is wrong to have fun and enjoy oneself, but I certainly think it is wrong to do it at the expense of humanity, in any quantity. Yes, people may not be dying from living a casual life, but there is something to be said about living decently while someone else cannot even survive. Overall, I think I am going to start trying to be less casual, and a little more serious.

I think being too serious can get you into problems though. This is one thing I definitely don’t have a problem with, quite the contrary. Either way, I think it is worth addressing. One of my biggest pet peeves is when people are too serious or are stuck up. There are definitely two sides to the spectrum, but I think it bothers me more when people are stuck up, because they make people who are not serious feel awful by means of aiming poor attitudes at those people. It is a difficult balance. For me, I lean more towards being too relaxed – which I like, because I do not get frustrated easily. At the same time, it is good to learn how to be sensitive to help those in need of someone who is sensitive and understanding.

Its a New Week!

The new week has started. After a long hard weekend of work, finally the week is here. It is almost enjoyable knowing the week is starting just because I know it means it is that much closer to the next weekend. I find it odd about myself, how I am always looking forward to something else. To be content is definitely a difficult task. From small things to big things, it feels like everything is just pushing forward to the impending doom of being over so that something new can start.

Most of all, I think school is the most difficult to be content in. Don’t get me wrong, I love being in school, I love academia; it is just the feeling of knowing that I am practically trapped here and I need to finish before I can start something else. That is probably why it is hard for me to be content – I am too much of a spontaneous person.  So the feeling of having a task with a deadline, or having something that needs to be finished (i.e. my bachelors degree) is a very demoralizing feeling. I am close though, I can taste the finish line. I am coming up to my last semester in the Spring. Hopefully it will by my last, that is – if I do choose to add a second major to my degree, that will be another whole semester. Decisions make it even more difficult to deal with. Not only do I have to wait to be done with school, but I have to choose whether or not I need to wait longer. Overall, I think the real question is if its worth it.

I often look at my college career wondering if it has been worth it. I know I have made a lot of good friends and I have experienced a lot being here. At the same time, I can’t shake the feeling that I could be doing something more worth my while. I would rather be out in the world making some sort of difference now instead of waiting for my school to be done. At the same time, with more education I may be of more use. Often I hear people say how “we cannot really impact or change the world so why try.” I beg to differ though, I think that is exactly the reason there are problems. Anyways, I am getting too serious for right now, I will put that topic on the back burner for another time. All in all, I would just like to feel like I am not totally wasting my time at school, I need to be a part of something radically different.